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It's Raining GOLD

-artist: Paulo Aquino

This is basically what an expansion of what i had said during Weekend Training for Gold Year:

Ever since I have gotten involved with SPOP my freshmen year, I feel like I have become one of the luckiest persons. My brother (Purple Year) had always encouraged me to apply for staff,, even as a freshman, but warned me that it's hard to get it as a first year. I applied just to give it a shot. I guess it was kind of good that i was having a pretty slow and sad day because when I got that acceptance letter in my mailbox, my mood changed a complete 180 degrees. I can't believe i got the position of SPOP staffer as a freshman.

Staffing Teal Year was such an amazing exposure to college life. Getting perspectives from all aspects of college and being able to experience it all, as well as influencing incoming freshmen. I definetly got to staff with some amazing people and was blessed with such a loving family. DFW BLUE!

I knew i had to reapply as a returner because i knew that my journey on this SPOP trail wasn't completed quite yet. I applied as a returner, knowing again that it would be difficult to get the position. I was still young and the idea that i would be a "dad" let alone be considered a "returner" seemed very daunting. But behold, i received that roller coaster email yet again couldn't believe how lucky i was to be given this opportunity again.

Walking into the first returners training, i was so happy with what i saw. Knowing who was a returner felt so different than actually being there with all the returners. I felt such a strong chemistry between of all us and i felt so lucky being in a group of such amazing returners. At the end of that first training, when we were trying to find our partners for our discussion, i was just looking around going...where is my wifey!? Shahirah? nahhh... Sarah Khan...HELL NO....and it was getting towards the end and i still couldn't find my wifey. Then out of no where...Issac Cheung caught my eye and we looked at each other. He hadn't found his, and I hadn't found mine yet, and I knew we were both thinking, "No way...NO FREAKING WAY...", so we approached each other, and our HEARTS MATCHED!! OMG MR. and MR. CHEUNG!!! Ya'll can have your wifeys, but i had got myself a hubby.

So with being so lucky with staffing Teal year, being with such great returners and getting me a hubby, i anxiously anticipated waited for my family. Our family was the last discussion of the week and the anticipation kept building the whole week. That morning was a wreck with classes, work, and getting family stuff together, i was a hot trany mess, but i have truly been blessed with such a loving family with 4 daughters and 3 sons. Daddy's Little Angles <3 10 weeks of training went by and i got to slowly, but surely meet all the staffers. They truly are an amazing group. I couldn't ask for a better group of staffers to staff with. I definetly got lucky with this group. Winter Quarter was tough, and although Spring Quarter was fun and busy, it defiently was tough. I go by a quote that i have lived by for a while, "After every storm, the sun will eventually shine". Our color revealing this year couldn't have been a more appropriate fit. Reading the marquee with everyone and having our color revealed with our shirts being tossed down at us...the sun was definetly was shinning with our GOLDEN shirts. It seemed so PERFECT.

SPOP is just inexplainable. It's something you have to experience in order to understand it, and it stays with you forever. Now, its only the beginning of Gold Year. The summer is just starting and I can't wait for how brightly that Gold Year can shine this year.

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