Was the juice worth the squeeze?

Tis the end of another quarter, and I don't think I can leave relieved. Most people enjoy finishing their finals and hoping for a fresh new start or something new in the spring quarter, but I'm leaving Winter Quarter with a bit of uncertainty and not quite sure what to look for in Spring. There have been so many things that have happened this past quarter, even this past Finals week that has me thinking, "what am i doing?" or "what have i done?". It's those things where you feel like you are putting so much effort, so much of you, your turmoil, emotions, time, energy, and the outcome isn't what you quite expected. You shoot for the moon, yet you still fall short of the stars. Was everything worth it?

My mom told me that this new lunar year would bring me the greatest emotional roller coaster. I will feel the highest of my highs, and fall to the lowest of my lows. I feel like I have started experiencing that already, and its only been about two months in. Uncertainty can be so thrilling yet so scary at the same time, but I guess thats what life is really like.

I did something that I have finally got to do. So much time bottling it up and pretending that it was okay and finally allowing it to be released. I don't know where this is going to lead to, but I hope to find some kind of conclusion to it. It's not done. However, from this point, I ask myself, "Was the juice worth the squeeze?"